Drastic II

Another unfortunate day. I was listless and lethargic most of the day. perhaps in a bit of shock. Failure sucks.

I wanted to go mountain biking but I just didn't have it in me. Literally, I tried, but I ended up taking an hour shower and then a 2 hour nap and it was 4p before I knew it (I didn't get up until noon). I'll come back tomorrow and hit it hard (and I'll row tonight instead).

I know it'll get better. I sent a relatively dramatic text message to my girlfriend:

"I've had a self-inflicted rough day. Now mostly listless and lethargic. Essentially, I gained actual knowledge of my physical state: 278 pound and about 35% body fat. If I fail at this it'll kill me. Trying to resolve mentally/emotionally. Hard to hear. "

All of that is true. I think I'm going over to her place later. At which time, I'm going to seek out the coolest triathlon I can find for June, sign up for it, and then start to train diligently for it. i'll also need to start monitoring the state of my physical affairs.

We'll see.

(mountain biking area captured via google earth, listed above).

Drastic

My view is that desperate issues require significant "beatback" efforts. I can do better. I should do better. I must do better. This will cost me years of my life.

Ugh.

new body fat numbers - highest yet

well, as predicted:

New number: 30.423%

p: 33, 29, 24, 23, and 31; I kept: 29, 24, and 31.
s: 53, 63, 63 68 and 67; I kept 63, 63 and 67.
T: 15, 12, 16, 10 and 8; I kept 15, 12, and 10.

"T:" was the most difficult measurement. I simply couldn't quite get the calipers to work right -- it mostly caused redness on my skin. Also, it seemed to either be 18 or 3. . . but little inbetween.

As for tape measurements, they are:
N: 17.75;
B: 15.00;
C: 51.00;
US: 50.00;
LS: 45.00; and
T: 25. 50

I must say it was predicted. I can't quite bring myself to get on the scale though.

Frustrating.

Update and preparing for new measurements

The truth is this: I often hide from the truth. It's not healthy. But it's predictable.

I hope to do some measurements tonight -- but I know. I know that my pants are tighter then they have ever been. I also know that some of my suits no longer fit. I suppose it is part of the cost of my first year of practice.

During the past year I think my nutrition has been better than my exercise -- but it's been a low threshhold. I suspect my average workouts are 2-3 times per week. I know I consume too many calories per day; however, i do try to eat more roughage, vegetables and fruit. However, I often fail at that task. Salads for me are definitely hit and miss. I do like to eat frozen meals since they are more predictable.

But, fact is: When you work 60-70 hours per week, some portion of your life is going to suffer. For me, that something seems to be not only relationships with others, but also my health. Doesn't seem like that's a rational trade, but it seems to occur with some regularity for me. That probably deserves some examination.

kc